A Letter to Heaven Above

Dear Kung",

I'm entirely thankful, because I had someone so genuinely kind and loving in my life. I'm always grateful, because I got the opportunity to know you personally, as much as I could. I'm very happy, because I grew up spending the whole childhood with you.

You are someone who comes first on my mind when it comes to kindness. You are what love can simply be defined as. You are someone I am undoubtedly and entirely blessed to have.

I may not am the best granddaughter of yours, yet you are still the best grandfather I have ever had. I may not have given you all my time and love, yet you gave me all your everything. Up to this moment, I'm still grieving for what I haven't done when I had the time. Because you offered me such an overwhelmingly unconditional love, that I will always have for the rest of my lifetime.

I can't thank God enough for your existence. Not only in this world, but in my family, as my grandfather.

Time flies. It's been 2 years since the day you left us. but I still feel your lost. I still can't believe and not get used to for you not being here with me. I really miss the old time how I talk about anything to you as I like. There's no grandpa as great as you outside there.

I still remember all of our good memories. Too much to write it all, too memorable to explain in with words. It's simply one of my most treasury memory of lifetime.
When I found out that you only put my photo in your wallet, I'm touched as badly as I cried like a baby.
I cried every random time that you cross my mind or come into my dreams. In that case, I know you're always by my side guiding me :)

You're the role model of not just a great granddad, but also a loving father, husband, uncle... The best version of man in life. Beyond perfect...

I hope someday I'll meet a guy that as best as you.

Even though we are not to meet again in the same life, I know we will be meeting in another life, another time. So for now I'll just learn how to let you go.

I hope you're resting in peace and I wish you all happiness up there

Dear God, please take my message to my Grandpa in Heaven above. Tell Him how much I miss Him and wrapped with all my love.

Unconditional Love,

your beloved grand daughter :)

Annoying Couples

Hello it's 2015...
calling all of the lovebirds...
Couple nowadays is wayyyy off limit!!! I mean it's not because I'm an envy bitch or the effects of being single for too long but, y'all know what I'm trying to say here right?
You can do this or that in front of public, but don't be too exaggerate it!
So, I came up with type of annoying couple (which happen in my real life):

1. Couples who don’t go anywhere without each other.

This sort of couple just assumes that they are invited everywhere together! Parties, outings with buddies, even in college, they’re everywhere to be seen, and always together!! Like Siamese twins. Ugh!

2. Couples who argue or baby each other on Socmed especially Instagram.

The world is your playground, but apparently this type of couple thinks it’s limited only to Insta. They upload tons of selfies everyday, want to express love, argue, bicker, and romance, but only on Insta. Ever heard the phrase 'get a room'?

PS: to be continued, I'm running outta inspiration & words

The Asshole kinda relationship

Nowadays answer to "are you single?"

No, I'm LDR-ing with my boyfriend from the future- oh come on you gotta be kiddin me, do you have a time machine?

No, my boyfriend lives in my mind, he's kinda doesn't exist- oh not again. Are you living in your mind too?

Dear future boyfriend, if you happen to accidentally reading this shit..

I like the asshole kinda relationship

You don’t always have to be sweet and lovey dovey all the time. You can act like total assholes to each other and be mean. That’s when you know there is comfortably in the relationship. Making fun of each other, calling each other mean names, with out meaning it at all, abusing each other. Abusing as in joking around. The playful fighting. But, that wont hurt anybody. That’s another way to show love.

Sincerely, Me

LIFE?

This LIFE is full of sequence of events...

We take chances, make choices, and receive consequences. I have a great belief that everything do happens for a reason. Sometimes we don't like certain things that happen in our life or at certain outcomes in our life. But, it's God way of saying that it was probably not meant for us for he knows what's best for us.

Like everything that had happened in your life, everything that you did, leads you to who you are today. If you can turn back time and change your past, 1 little thing that you change and it will change the future. It could be different, you could be someone else, your career, your love life, your health, everything would be different. So, that's why we have to think before we act, be smart enough to make the right decision.

Your journey of life has molded you to the greater good. It was exactly what it needed to be. Don't think you've lost time. It took each and every situation you have encountered to bring you to the now. And now is right on time!!

WHAT IF... this life is just a dream. That when we die is the time when we wake up from our dream. When we're are actually in heaven asleep for 1 night, but our time on earth is already 50 years or more?.. and BOOM!! All of our surroundings, our family and friends never existed...

What If

I feel like everything in my life has led me to you. My choices, my heartbreaks, my regrets. Everything. And when we're together, my past seems worth it. Because if I had done one thing differently, I might never have met you.

They say, "You met someone for a reason. Either a blessing or a lesson." 

WHAT IF I want you to be my blessing, to stay in my path, not just passing by?
WHAT IF I've fallen in love and can't bare a day without you in my life? Everyday I spent, everything that I do, keeps reminding me of you and I wish that you're here spending it with me.
WHAT IF...

Why we can't stop falling for the people who already left? Why God take someone out of our life but keep reminding us bout them? Maybe this is the part of moving on. Sometimes, it's not the person we miss, but the memories the moment. To love is to be hurt. To hurt is to be stronger and wiser.

They also said, "If it's meant to be, it will be. But if it's not, no matter how hard your try, it will never be." It's so sad and hurtful, but it's also true at the same time :(  

WHAT IF... we are not meant to be together? WHAT IF God just want us to pass by each others life to teach each other a lesson? WHAT IF in previous life we are together so that we can't be together in this life?
WHAT IF someday in the future we meet again, only simple meeting but never to be together? :(
Deep in our hearts we know we love each other, it shouldn't end this way. Why God won't let us be? 

I believe, someday we will find the right one at the right place and at the right time. No matter how God's design it to be. Let's wait and see :)

Me falling in love

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

Soulmate

Hey guys, it's been awhile since the last time I share some of my thoughts on something. So, today's about Soulmate..

As many people have thought that soulmate is the same as boyfriend/girlfriend or husband/wife. But, it's a really different thing.

These are some article that I picked up that can explain the difference of life partner and soulmate. Soulmate doesn't have to be the opposite sex, it's kinda like a best friend too. 

"Our soulmate is someone who shares our deepest longings, our sense of direction. When we're two balloons, and together our direction is up, chances are we've found the right person." - Richard Bach

Some soulmate relationships, like twin souls, are even meant to have a greater purpose: one that is 'bigger' (if you will) then may have been able to meet individually.

“Your soul mate makes you feel entirely intact, like no piece is missing from the puzzle. A life partner, on the other hand, can be a great supporter and long-time companion, but is limited in his or her capacity to enrich your spirit.” ~ Dr. Carmen Harra

Soul mates differ from life partners. Some people, not ever encountering a soul mate or soul connection, settle down with a life partner. These relationships can be very satisfying. They are often built on mutual trust, respect and friendship.

You see, in life, we have no control over timing and sometimes less control of circumstance. Some cannot wait forever in hopes of encountering a soul mate, so they are satisfied with a mature life-partner relationship. For some it is about survival, security or simple companionship, and the word soul mate does not resonate. The concept may seem flighty, dreamy and unrealistic. Life circumstance, timing, availability, security and many other factors may all influence our relationship choices… BUT…

Chances are if you are open, ready and blessed enough to meet a Soul Mate in this life time it will happen unanticipated and unexpected. It can feel unsettling, destabilizing and ungrounding because it is a different connection than any other you have had.

There are no words or explanations that can clearly articulate such a connection. It is a magnetic energy, an intuitive knowing and it just seems right. There is no matter of space or time, you have found your way to one another.

Actually, timing and way are quite often terrible. But when it arrives, you know. There is the “I get you feeling.” There is a flow and a rhythm that seems to be guided by something much higher. You step back to catch your breath because deep down you know this is special. This is different. This is genuine.

It is raw and it is so damn real you want to run away just to soak it up and take it in. The soul mate. The one you feel vibrate when they are a thousand miles away. The one you hear whisper when they think about you. The one who lets you move freely but embraces your shadow from afar. That one. The one you feel like you have known for a million years.

When you finally settle into the WOW, you see the beauty, the rarity, and eventually the clarity. You know it is real, a keeper. Sometimes as a friend, other times a lover. Sometimes transient, other times permanent.

These beautiful soul reminders may too, just pop into our lives temporarily to remind us of what we have been forgetting; our writing, singing, creating, imagining, dancing or living. They light the spark. They get the fire going. They are the gentle nudge. Sometimes they stay, and other times move on. But they usually leave you appreciative and often breathless. They remind us to be alive, vibrant and hopeful.

“Have you ever met someone for the first time, but in your heart you feel as if you have met them before?”~ Joanne Kenrick, When a Mullo Loves a Woman

“We were not making love, we did not even kiss, but the inexplicable intimacy we shared left us wordlessly and hopelessly locked into each other’s gaze.” ~ Jasmine Dubroff

“Soulmates are people who bring out the best in you. They are not perfect but are perfect for you.” ~ Author Unknown

There is a catch to encountering these deep connections. Before you can go to this depth and even be brave enough to notice it, you first must love yourself. Because when you have love times a million for yourself, it comes naturally and effortlessly, transforming through you and transfixing to another who too loves themselves and are ready and open for depth.

Intimacy requires an open-heart. Looking, searching, praying, visualizing and meditating does not bring a soul mate. I do not believe they can be summoned. No one can be your other half or fill your cup but you. Sure, a soul mate can remind, inspire and certainly enhance your life but no one can be your happiness — but YOU. Although, one can be prepared.

“Don’t worry about finding your soul mate. Find yourself.” ~ Jason Evert

Feeling curious? Read on and without over-analyzing, ask yourself — soul mate or life partner?

The 10 Elements of a Soul Mate:

1. It’s something inside. Describing how a soul mate makes you feel is difficult. It’s a tenacious, profound and lingering emotion which no words can encompass.

2. Flashbacks. If your partner is your soul mate, chances are he or she has been present in your past lives. You might even feel an odd sense of déjà vu, as if the moment in time has already taken place, perhaps a long time ago, perhaps in a different setting.

3. You just get each other. Ever met two people who finish each others sentences? Some people call that spending too much time together, but I call it a soul mate connection. You might experience this with your best friend or your mother, but it is the telltale sign of a soul mate when you experience it with your partner.

4. You fall in love with his (or her) flaws. No relationship is perfect, and even soul mate relationships will experience ups and downs. Still, that bond will be much harder to break. Soul mates have an easier time of accepting, even learning to love, each others imperfections.

5. It’s intense. A soul mate relationship may be more intense than normal relationships, in both good and sometimes bad ways. The most important thing is that, even during negative episodes, you’re focused on resolving the problem and can see beyond the bad moment.

6. You two against the world. Soul mates often see their relationship as “us against the world.” They feel so linked together that they’re ready and willing to take on any feat of life, so long as they have their soul mate by their side.

7. You’re mentally inseparable. Soul mates often have a mental connection similar to twins. They might pick up the phone to call each other at the exact same time. Though life may keep you apart at times, your minds will always be in tune if you are soul mates.

8. You feel secure and protected. Regardless of the gender of your partner, he or she should always make you feel secure and protected. Your soul mate will make you feel like you have a guardian angel by your side. A person who plays on your insecurities, whether consciously or subconsciously, is not your soul mate.

9. You can’t imagine your life without him (or her). A soul mate is not someone you can walk away from that easily. It is someone you can’t imagine being without, a person you believe is worth sticking with and fighting for.

10. You look each other in the eye. Soul mates have a tendency to look into each others eyes when speaking more often than ordinary couples. It comes naturally from the deep-seated connection between them. Looking a person in the eye when speaking denotes a high level of comfort and confidence.

So, if you guys happen to find that 1 special person in your life, DON'T LET THEM GO!!!